it’s raining, it’s pouring

My computer isn’t working. I have wanted to post pictures of my loverly trip to Texas among others but Ben is in the process of getting new hard drives and programs among screws and plugs I’m assuming. It’s all beyond me, I just know this isn’t working well for me…

and I totally got my upper braces today. It’s official. I’m a huge dork. eeeeeee. I don’t go out a lot, but recently I did both times I got carded they were surprised and exclaimed that I looked much younger, like about 20 or 22. Now I have braces. This isn’t some cutsie I’m getting to re-live my teenage years or anything, this is embarrassing. I know I shouldn’t care so much, but I just want to hide and never smile again. I’m dreading my surgery, the ever ominous cloud of anxiety and pain that is always on the horizon of June-ish. I’m trying to stay positive, but I’m just not making it today.

The rain is beautiful though, I love the stormy weather, the hard wind that rocked my Subaru and I drove home. Summit was almost out of my arms stretching to touch the rain. I gave in, we are soaked now. He is singing from his crib and I think I’ll nap. It’s great nap weather and all.