The other day on my way to the gym (yes, shameless pat on the back here), I didn’t turn my radio on. That is not normal for me, I love music! I just felt like thinking and I don’t get a lot of time to do that. I mean, I don’t MAKE time to do that. I am not talking about thinking about what’s for dinner, my ‘To Do List’, or little things like that, but LIFE. Then I started wondering…How many of us actually take the time to do that?
We are so bombarded by media, technology and others opinions, when do we take time to think for ourselves, or ponder what is really important in life? Thirty minutes alone with my thoughts and I was on the verge of becoming a hot mess!
I have been divorced for 3 1/2 years now, and if I am being honest, I don’t know who I am outside of mother, daughter, sister, friend, and employee. I’ve started a journal (a beautiful hand bound leather journal) that is going to be about me rediscovering myself. I will not pretend for even a moment that this is going to be a fun journey, or a painless one either. I’ve made a lot of strides in my life over the last few years and I am happy for that, but I still have this nagging feeling that I am missing part of the bigger picture…
I am planning a “Sareacation” (yes, I just made that up!) in a couple of weeks when the kids are at their dads. I want to purposely set aside some time for me to just think, dream, pray and write. If I can figure out a way to articulate myself, perhaps I will share part of this journey with you.
P.S. On a lighter note, speaking of the gym…I had my first locker room shower experience yesterday and I am thinking it might be blog worthy! Stay Tuned!
