Conflicts of (dis)interest

August 15, 2009 by · 7 Comments

I am so conflicted. Well, maybe not so much conflicted as annoyed. But not really annoyed…. oh what is the word… unsettled. I don’t freaking know what I feel, that is the point here.

My ten year reunion is this fall.

Oh yes. For those of you who really don’t know me, I hated high school. I was never cool or fun. I watch teen high school movies thinking, “oh that is how it could of been,” when in actuality, I *know* that it wouldn’t be like the movies any more than watching movies with parents and small children who are rich and gorgeous. I know that Brad and Angelina may look like they have it all, but they still get puked on and have bratty chilren. Even if they do, in fact, have housekeepers, personal chefs and nannies to do all the work. OK, maybe that wasn’t such a hot example, maybe they do have it all so comparing what could be to them would be as depressing as thinking that my high school years could be like a Freddie Prince jr. movie where the hot guy would FINALLY notice me and ask me to the Prom then we would get married and have beautiful children that came with a type of nastiness repellant and a nanny and a personal chef so I’d be a size 0 and be hot and go to my reunion and say “HAH YOU JERK HEADS! See how wonderful I am now? YOU MISSED OUT!” and point at the now-not-so-hot-former-hottie-athlete-person that I had been in love with and they’d be all like, “We were such jerk heads and we’ve spent the last 10 years in regret for how we treated you, please, can we EVER make it up to you?” and haughtily I’d deny them with a toss of my perfect hair.

…. but that isn’t reality, and the fact is that I’m 20 lbs heavier than I was in high school and living in my parent’s basement. Not exactly the bragging rights I was looking forward to shoving in their faces. Which, like I know, isn’t really Christ-like or decent of me to want to do that but ohhhhh I hated high school and WHY AM I TORTURING MYSELF?! So, I was like, I am NEVER going to my high school reunion because that is the mature thing to do since my only motives ever were to be hateful, but then, as my friend’s 10 year reunion came and went I realized that…. no one ever invited me.

Yeah. talk about humble pie. I facebooked a friend and found out it’s in a little more than a month. I added the RHS Reunion as a friend on facebook and hated myself. I am so weak. Now to start my crash diet… maybe. I don’t CARE! Jerk-heads.

Filed Under: All about ME, HILARIOUSNESS, pride ·
  • Heidi

    OK OK, I'm 40 lbs heavier than I was in HIGH SCHOOL DANGIT my thinness was wasted on that time period!

  • Wendy

    I thought you were perfectly "cool" and "fun" in junior high…in fact, we were just sooo much more awesome than everyone else that they could not even bring themselves to take notice. I'm sure that carried on to your high school years. =)

    Seriously, though, if it is going to cause you that much distress, if I were you I just wouldn't go. And, I think you will find that almost everyone is heavier than they were in high school (at least that is what I'm hoping, haha)

    Wendy Schaeffer

  • Nancy

    The 10-year one was kind of a waste. I was actually forced to go by friends who threw me in the car on their way to the event. I wasn't married yet and felt weird about it. However, I was pleasantly surprised and had a decent time. If you don't go, hang on for that 20-year reunion…oh yeah, baby. I felt pretty darn good about myself and my life by then, even though it's not perfect (but who has to know). Ten years just seemed kind of silly to me. It's not very much time, and people are still finding themselves.

  • Heidi

    lol, this was written in good fun, but seriously, I don't think I'm going to go.

    and THANKS Wendy for your encouragement, lol, you were always so nice! if the reunion was for jr. high I'd SO be there actually! 😉 I still remember you in 6th grade asking me to play with you… ahhh, you always made me smile!

    Nancy, Perhaps I'll be better mentally in another 10 years, or forget all but the good memories from High school. :) you are right, I still am finding myself like you said!

  • David and Katy

    Go there, if not for any reason but to have a good laugh. definately something interesting to blog about. Go for your blogger fans. And you have always been cool Heidi, I always thought so. Always sweet, stylish and SMART! :) Who even remembers anyone anyways? I can barely remember the ppl I graduated with and it was 6 years ago…

  • Heidi

    good idea Katy… now that gets me motivated! Perhaps…

  • Amanda

    Heidi. You have so much to be proud of. Look at your little family and the fact that you are "able" to stay at home with your wonderful son. That's really saying something. You have waaayyy better hair and a fashion sense that is a million times better than high school. Go, and wow them all!!

    On a side note, Dustin's 10 yr sucked. We paid way too much for crappy food and ended up leaving and going to Theo's to just hang out. The only people who showed up for the event were the cliques who all stayed in contact with each other and probably planned the whole thing. It was a sorority meeting ….and I was in a sorority so I would know one when I saw one. :)