Who here is optimistic? Would you say that the bottom 5% is really just um… well, you optimists can come out and tell me how to say it more positively. It’s not a 50-50 deal where the glass is half full. The bottom 5% and 10% are kind of bad for whatever you are making a scale of. Right? I’m not trying to be pessimistic, just realistic.
So, what I’m getting at, what all the percent statements are about, is that I took Summit to the doctor Tuesday (MAJOR victory!) and they took his height and weight and they are the bottom 10% and 5% respectively. That was a run on sentence. I’m trying not to be pessimistic about this, or worried, as I often am. It didn’t help that I watched True Hollywood Story about vegans and they were talking about the couple that starved their baby by making it adhere to a vegan diet. NOT THAT I’M DOING ANY OF THAT!! In fact that story isn’t really relevant at all so I don’t know why I even mentioned it. I should delete the whole last couple of sentences really. Back to my point- Summit is small for his age. He has fat rolls, so he’s fine, even the doctor said that, so why am I worried? Hmmmm. Maybe it’s because he’s a little behind. He sits pretty well… when he wants, and he didn’t feel like it at the doctors office. So he looked like a very small, underdeveloped baby. THAT stresses me out. And his eye problem. Have I mentioned that?? I’ve seen an optometrist and she told me his “lazy” eye is him being farsighted and trying to compensate. We’re going again in a few weeks to have another evaluation. The doctor referred me to a optomogolist (I’m spelling this word so wrong it’s not offering me any options so I apologize). I have NO idea what the difference is other than the optometrist was part of a “infant see” program that sees infants free of charge b/t the ages of 6-12 months. I’m sure the optomologist isn’t a part of that nice program. SO it will cost money. And he thinks I should go see him very soon. WHAT IS WRONG WITH SUMMIT???
I was told by an apparently well-meaning lady that she could tell from his eyes that he’d have developmental issues and maybe learning disabilities. I cried for a hour after I was told that. People really shouldn’t tell that to others unless they are psychics that can read the future. But like a dummy I called the Developmental Problems Center (not their real name)that she referred me to and I have an appt. next Tuesday. I’m procrastinating calling the optomologist, I don’t want to hear anything bad right now. Do you ever feel like there is a black freakin’ cloud over your head? Constantly raining on you when everyone else is in the sun? Like Winnie-the-Pooh. Somebody give me an umbrella please.