Lately I've not been able to write. Part of that is that I've been extra busy at work but even when I've had time there has been such a huge mental block -- it's frustrating to say the least. Last night my schedule unexpectedly opened up and I was able to go to a meeting at my church and sit down with a group of women, most of whom I'd never met without knowing really what we'd be discussing. I … [Read more...]
Why is church community so hard? I stood awkwardly in my 4"wedge heels on the grass by the playground I wouldn't have worn if I had better read the emails from my church saying we were having an outdoor picnic. Feeling a little silly, I sighed and watched the clusters of small groups eating and enjoying their dinner. I wish I was more outgoing and friendly- but I freeze in these … [Read more...]
I read recently that your blog should reflect fully how you talk and act in person in order to be a place of authenticity. As much as I want to agree that mine is like that, I don't feel like it is fully- my blog is a true reflection of what I say- but you can't hear the inflection in my voice or see my facial expressions with dramatic arm gestures that lighten most of the heavy things that I talk … [Read more...]
Lately I've been digging deep and as much as sometimes I hate posting my struggles and cringe as I hit the publish button, there is the reality that I know I'm not alone in soul searching and identity seeking. *************** Last week I had a conversation with a good friend that caused me to have a life epiphany and made me a bit paranoid actually although excited to have … [Read more...]
