Mountains of silence

I am currently at the end of an eight day journey alone.

Yep you read that… Alone.

P.S. My dog has been with me. =-)


Cedar’s first hike in the mountains

I have never really done this before… This being going off on a long trip alone.

I have been through some challenging situations in the last several weeks in my personal life and in this time I have questioned a lot in my life.

This journey alone has been in Colorado in the Rocky Mountains.  I spent several days in Denver alone, a day in Estes, a day driving trail ridge road on my way to Winter Park to spend several days.

This has been one of the hardest things I have ever done emotionally, spiritually and in some ways physically. ( I had several days where I thought ,”this is crazy, pointless, and not going to matter.”   I was a tad home sick and thought about just going home.)


I drove a stupid amount of miles and hours to what I had hoped would be a place where I could hear the voice of the Lord in ways that I didn’t think I could at home.

This physical journey has been a time of telling the Lord how I really feel and asking Him many questions and hoping for some kind of response to it all.


Silence in many ways in our culture is a good and rare thing to find.  However, I didn’t take this trip to find silence.  I was taking this trip to hear.

To hear anything that would bring understanding.  To hear anything that would challenge me.  To hear anything that would encourage me.

Really… Anything.

* I have been deeply sad and angry and I have held very little back from the Lord about my thoughts and emotions.  I literally had an entire day of crying.  (please don’t judge, it had been a long and heart wrenching few days and they all came crashing together in one full day of tears)

* I have had to make my way through mountains of lies concerning my worth and value to myself, others and the Lord.

* I have had to struggle through whether my voice matters to the lord as much as His matters to me.


A dear friend who recently went on a journey to the beach, (literally the opposite of me), just to hear anything experienced the same ending result… Silence.

I know that others experience this and while I don’t have an answer or understanding as to why at times when we need so desperately to hear from the Lord that this is what we are met with, I have to believe that He is in it all.

There has been a song that has been playing over and over in my head through this time, there are so many things I could say about this song and talk about but the thing I am clinging to is the opening.

“Every morning shines a brand new light*
A brand new light, yes a brand new light
Every morning shines a brand new light
It’s a whole new day somehow”

Song by: Danny Schmidt – Man of many moons

I have to cling to this statement that ever morning shines a brand new light and in that somewhere the voice of the Lord will break through and this scripture.

Isaiah 46:9b-11

For I am God, and there is no other; I am God, and there is none like me, declaring the end from the beginning and from ancient times things not yet done, saying, “My counsel shall stand and I will accomplish all my purpose,” calling a bird of prey from the east, the man of my counsel from a far country.  I have spoken, and I will bring it to pass; I have purposed, and I will do it. 

He will do it all and it will all come to pass… whatever it is. 

  • Heidi Clark

    Yes, Sherry, I love that! This is such a great post- Thank you! I completely understand where you are. Hang in there.

  • Julie Thomas

    I applaud you for doing what I have wanted to do but didn’t have the guts to go. I think many of us have been there – needing to hear God’s voice, reassurance. I will be praying you feel Him in His silence.